Chapter 183: Chapter 183- Start From Scratch
Chapter 183: Chapter 183- Start From Scratch
Inhaling a very long breath, Sophie tried to calm down her racing heart. But, it only made her even more excited for some reason. Just being in this position, with his arms around her body was more than enough to send her flying, let alone when he gave her a smile like that. Her heart couldn't handle that overload.
Talon was completely oblivious to that fat and slowly put her down. "You can move, right?" He asked.
"Huh? Oh, y-yeah, I can..." She replied with a timid expression as she turned around and tried to pretend like nothing happened.
"Good. Well, I guess we should be done here." Talon looked around him as he declared.
"What? Shouldn't we check the nest first?"
"Yeah, we probably should. But, I'm sure we won't find any more rats there."
'Azure Flames are still burning somewhere which means rats are still dying. The chain reaction should be more than enough to take care of the rest of the monsters. But, for measures, we should check the nest.' He thought to himself before he started walking.
"Put your mask on, this might be the most disgusting part to do." He warned Sophie before he adjusted the gas mask on his face.
"Roger that!"
The duo continued walking through the dirty tunnels while trying their best to avoid all the nasty things in their way. The smell was already unbearable as it was so they didn't want to end up smelling like waste after leaving this place.
"How are we going to know where the nest is, though?" Sophie asked.
"I can still feel my Azure Flames burning. If we follow it, we would probably end up in the nest." He replied.
"Oh, Azure Flames? That's a very cool name." Sophie said. "The fact that they killed so many rats is even more terrifying."
"It's one of my strongest abilities. But, it could be as harmful to me as it could be to my target so I have to be careful when using it."
'Not that I really followed that rule. I almost killed myself multiple times using a variation of this flame.' Talon sighed.
"Oh, is that so..." Sophie murmured.
Then, she went completely silent. The only sound that penetrated the dark tunnels was the sound of their footsteps as they walked. The atmosphere was not tense but there was still some awkwardness that Sophie could feel between them.
Her lips pursed as she looked down. She didn't know what to do at that moment. Her mind which was usually very good at coming up with logical solutions to all kinds of situations refused to help at that moment. She wanted to go back to being normal with Talon and yet didn't know how.
But, she knew that it wasn't as easy as that. After 5 years of misunderstandings, Sophie felt that it wasn't going to be an easy task to fix this gap that was created between them.
'He is already becoming a great figure and he is still growing... Does that mean that we can finally be together without having to worry about the differences between us?'
"But... I acted as if nothing happened... If I knew that it hurt you this much, I would've left acting long ago."
"No, I'm not worth it. That's your dream!" He shook his head.
"No, you are worth it. You're worth everything to me... For the past 5 years, I felt completely empty. My daily life was devoid of meaning and to be honest, I contemplated ending it all... I couldn't live without you..."
Hearing that, Talon's face darkened greatly.
"But, I couldn't bring myself to end my life... And I'm glad I didn't..." She smiled slightly as she shook her head. "Acting is my passion and I love doing it. But, you're one of the reasons why I love my life. Without you, it loses whatever taste it had."
"..."
"I know I was selfish and I did hurt you... But, I want to be even more selfish and request something from you now..."
"What is it?"
"Let's scratch everything and start again." Looking up, Sophie said. "Now I understand what I did wrong and I want to fix it. Of course, I won't force you to get back to me. But, I still want to try again, one last time... As friends, just like when we were still kids."
Her beautiful voice sounded far more hopeful than ever before. Talon could see all the emotions Sophie was feeling through her eyes. He knew that he couldn't refuse such a look even if he didn't want to. But, he still had one problem...
"I don't mind. But, I must warn you beforehand. Because of what might happen in the future... A relationship between us might not be possible..." He said as he looked away. "For many reasons, I will have to leave on my own for a while in the future. I don't know how long, but it might take months or even years. I don't want to make a promise and then break it."
'I have too many things I need to do...'
Sophie stared at him silently with an incomprehensible expression.
"But, I can promise that after everything is over... I will try to-"
"Shh, it's fine." At that moment, Sophie shook her head with a small smile on her face. "I know what you mean and I don't mind just being friends till you're finally ready to accept me."
"... Really?"
"Yes, as long as I'm beside you, I don't mind what relationship we have."
"..." Talon opened his mouth to speak only to close it again speechlessly. He could not find the words to describe how he felt at that moment. Even though he didn't give her any promises, Sophie still wanted to be with him.
'Do I even deserve all of this?' He asked himself before he shook his head. 'No, I don't need an answer to that. I will make sure to pay her back for accepting me even for all my flaws.'
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